ELEVATE ME

Automatic said don't be a lazy blogger, but it's hard to focus when you're trying to save the world. Maybe I could do it one blog at a time, but I want to give them more. Something of substance. As things stand now it's just enough rope to form a noose.
When the dreams don't suck me dry, and when Nicole is vacationing down under, it's easy to see things for how they really are. And it scares the hell out of me. Who is there among us that is willing to scream the truth at any cost? Who is there among us the is willing to shed the materialism of X-Box Live and extend our hands to those sliding into the ocean? Who is there among us that is willing to forgo that Caramel Machiato so that pink and brown babies can eat? Who is there among us that is willing to stop thinking about our lover's breasts for one night and hold her like there will be no sunrise? Who is there among us that gives one true shit? I'll be honest...I don't know if I do sometimes.
Every day I say "God - give me purpose. Use me. Somehow. I don't want to be meaningless." Then I blog - maybe not as frequently as Automatic. Then I write - maybe not frequently enough to deem my artist status. Then I eat. And sleep. Maybe watch a movie. And try to make sense of life in the city. Scared. Unemployed. Trying to make theatre really happen for the first time. Ever.
Maybe it wont keep those bodies from sliding into the ocean. But then again, maybe it will. Maybe He will. And then maybe...I can.